frozen moments

It was like a graphic clipping from some hollywood movie. I was rooted to the ground and everything around me started circulating around me. The feeling passed over me for probably a fraction of second but it was like a life time. breath stopped, my mind just went blank and words lost and ...... It was a big news about an arrival of a new small life.
It was a call from my dad from port blair " its a baby girl" and the world changed. wow. Its almost 5 hours since i heard the news but I am yet to come out of that wonderful feeling bubling in every inch of the body called happiness.
I have heard the best and the worst of news but this one .....nothing of this kind ever before. This was one big news we were all waiting for quite some time and when it came ... even words are not sufficient to express it... Probably today i will end up with an unfisnihed blog. thank you.

Ants also take revenge

Its been long time since I wrote some thing , but after what I have gone thru i just could not resist my temptation to write about it. It all started on a thursday morning as usual I woke up and opened the door and picked up my milk sachets and lit the gas to make tea. Tea was ready and i opened the sugar jar and to my deep dismay i found an ant colony in it. Over night like the bollywood movie goons who make settlements from thin air in unclaimed properties to grab it , the same way I found thousands of ants marching up and down inside the jar with the kind of familiairty as if they have been living their for the last 100 generations. I did a small survey in and around the jar and found that they have created a long trail longer than the jammu srinagar highway passing thru every nook and corner of the kitchen.
The very thought of drinking tea without sugar made me so angry that i decided to teach those ants a lesson. I pulled out the HIT spray and lavishly sprayed on all those places where i thought ants can get into.
1 day later
Saturday i washed all my clothes

2 days later
I woke up on sunday afternoon after a long deep sleep. I had planned to go out with friends for a long drive to mahabs and chill out. I cooked a small breakfast and got under the shower to refresh my cells and mood. shower over, pooja over and i pulled out my jeans and a comfirtable cotton shirt and my chaddi. since my cell phone was ringing endlessly i picked it up and started chatting and at the same time i got dressed and in a hurry i pulled on one by one and tucked in my shirt and then suddenly there was a sharp pain as if something has bitten in my thighs and then in all wrong places like mad. I immediately pulled down my pants and my chaddi and there i see hundreds of ants waiting for their turn to bite me. I threw that in the bucket full of water and got under the shower again to get rid of those lousy creatures and came out of the shower. this time i was very careful and to my surprise i found that ants were there in every piece of my inner gears and not a single one in any of my other clothes washed in the same lot.
all of a sudden i remembered the thursday morning when i killed thousands of ants and i realized the gorrilla attack was a revenge for that. God almighty save me and my important organs from the wrath of ants. amen

A truely sad day for stupid reason

As usual the pain in the wrong place is not because of the mortals around me or the people I work for nor coz of any one near or dear. And when i say pain it is triggered by a simple situation of expectations falling short and the expectation- an intangible thing from a bunch of people whom i have nevr met all my life....Well, guessing wont fetch any marks. The simple answer is Cricket. and our team loosing to a bunch of dedicated but less talented group of power packed lankans.

some times i feel if Indian team is allowed to play alone in a tournament they will still manage to end up as the runners up. I don know if the team in blue had any butterflies in their stomach the way me and millions of jack asses of the nation felt before the match. every time i tell myself, as an australian supporter lets be happy for ever. but deep down inside some where in my silent pareyers i pray for team India's victory. after the profoundly shocking defeat in the hands of those bonks even i started and end my bed prayers with men in blue in mind.

The hype was jus getting bigger in the office, road, car FM, even the Delhi airport lounge TV and the pilot of delhi -chennai announcing it every now and then. millions have gone bonkers over the largest show of world cricket. but sadly we were depending on such criminal waste of talents who thought cricket means hitting gold mine in terms of endorsement, chilling out and bedding some bollywood babes.

Today am not praying for the men in blue but i started my day with prayers for those millons like me who lost, hope, faith, trust and enthu in a game called cricket. coz i belive there is lots of power in the prayrs and some day it will be answered..if not with a world cup but atleast with a bunch of dedicated cricketers.

At peace

One hectic day...lots of travel. The city seems to have gone mad and is on the move. Suddenly it looks like the roads have become more narrow, lanes have shrunk and the greenery along side has vanished. I love trees and every time i see a tree missing or getting chopped the anger in me boils beyond control.
And today again I saw some guys cutting a tree to erect a advertisement hoarding and the anger inside me took charge and it went on from word to fist and then to cops and corporation officials. Finally barring few branches the tree is intact on its roots.
The obsession of the government to convert this city into a tech hub has paved the way for mindless developments, irresponsible construction, more pollution and choked traffic. It seems like another bangalore in the making.
Leave alone human even tourist dogs have strayed into the city....did some one tell them that chennai is a safe heaven. might be...coz all said and done this city is a safe heaven.

Another silent day

Over the fumes of my cigartte I was pondering on various thoughts criss crossing my mind. Silence was deafening but some how i loved that harmony in the silence. I was feeling more close to myself. After working recklessly for the last 10 years with out a break and trying to prove the endless list of points I just lost myself. It's probably me coming to terms with myself.
But I am loving it. Probably after so many days my mobile stopped ringing endlessly except for few bursts but i din't mind that. I lazily stopped to check my mails. Suddenly i laughed at myself thinking about those days when I used to check my mails in the middle of the night when i used to get up for the loo. Was it that I was scared or it was too much of anxiety. phewwwww!!!!!! its over now.
Tomorrow onwards I am meeting few corporate giants regarding my job. Getting ready for the rate race again.

the silence which is creeping in

I quit my job with one of the prestigious organizations on 28 Feb 2007, jus 4 days aft my30th brithday. It was one hell of a job filled with lots of power, responsibility and glamour, a corporate power center. I regret quitting it but after four days I fell Ok with my decision to call it a day.

But some kind of numbness has taken over in these four days. I jus don feel like dragging me out of the bed even at 10 am. even though i have met few people and i am confident of getting a job soon, but dont know why I am not able to come out of the vaccum which I cant even define.

probably when the sun rises tomorrow it will bring along a good stock of energy and positive thoughts for me.

meeting an old friend

This is my first blog. well starting looks like a trouble. I am sure after wasting lot of e-space even i will be able to manage some good english. It all started with me meeting one good old friend (Ramki) after a long time and catching up with each others life , the idea of blogging jus popped up. actually we met in a bloggers party and it was hoisted by Mr Kiruba. The friend of mine who took me to the party told me that he is a great, famous blogger. Well i never got time to check out his writing skills but he turned out to be a great guy, an amazing host and enviously surrounded by equally versatile folks from various walks of life.